I’ve written a few times in this blog that it’s just a list of things I’m working out in my mind. A sort of running journal of things I’ve read and am kneading in my mind as I examine them.
I have read quite a bit about procrastination and it’s something that I have been fighting with for the past five or six years. In some ways, it’s probably not as bad as I think it is, but it’s also probably worse in some areas than I have yet acknowledged.
I’ve noticed that certain tendencies of being afraid to start new projects, worrying about how perfect they will (or won’t be), and not assigning a proper priority level to each task I schedule all keep rearing their ugly heads.
I end up being rushed as deadlines approach when I had plenty of time to complete the project. Ever ready to prove to myself how unflappable I actually am, I also am willing to let deadlines go whooshing by me. Then I get stressed out and procrastinate trying to explain exactly what happened to completing this project by that deadline. It’s not exactly fun, but it’s hard to do anything differently. It’s wild.
All this reading and writing I’ve done about it and I still fight with it every day. Reminds me of that well-known Charles Dudley Warner quote:
“Everybody complains about the weather, but nobody does anything about it.”